Good for you. You know what they say... If people won't be there at your time of need, don't let them be there at your time of glory.
You will get through this. Although I do not know you personally, the things that I have seen in this thread, both from you and others that know you, I know that...
Falkor, don't ever feel like you can't ask for help. Asking for help is seen as a brave an courageous thing to do. It's the first step that could potentially change your life. No one in their right mind would use asking for help as a negative thing!
Keep strong and remember that everyone here...
This is what I love about football... It doesn't matter who you are, what you look like, how you live your life... Football unites us all.
Stay strong Falkor!