I second this, i was similar, a friend recommended it and lent me a book. I originally rubbished the idea, thinking it was some hippy nonsense, but eventually came round to giving it a try and it is fantastic.
I assume you are trolling if not, Im not sure this thread is for you. Everything you have said is contradicatory to what should be done and what will happen if you talk to people.
The first step to getting out of a bout of depression is to talk to people and visit your GP.