Oh, i don't deny that it was on his mind - i would be surprised if things weren't. He was clean of alcohol and at the time of his death, didn't have any levels of any narcotics in his system, so compared that to the times he could barely make it through his gigs i'd say he was fairly clean :wink:
Ironically some of the songs on his posthumous album were pretty upbeat, being fairly clean helped...well, til the suicide anyway.
Blasphemy!
Anyway, if you want depressing, go to Sunn O)))