I am going through a bit of a wobble.
The wife and daughter are going away for Easter for a holiday with her sister and father for a belated retirement treat for her dad, in a holiday of a lifetime. (I get sea sick so am not going on a catamaran for two weeks)
So I won't bother them, with...
Hang on in there fella, lots of people care about you, unfortunately for you, your in an in an unperfect storm, obviously your meds and concerns are real, so are the pressures and constraints of those treating you, who themselves could be going home to other vulnerable folk.
That and woefully...
You are not dumb or stupid, contact mind
https://www.mindcharity.co.uk/
also have a look at these threads, as you are far from alone
https://www.northstandchat.com/threads/mental-health-and-christmas-2022.398021/...