Thank you to everyone for the kind words and PM's. NSC can be such a very comforting place when you need it. Maybe I should have come back sooner. I still have some very dark days but I'll always have some wonderful memories of her which I'll never lose. My mum and my siblings overwhelmed me with kindness to help me cope and counselling has made me stronger to deal with the challenges.
I love you all.
Best wishes to you and hope you can keep strong and come out the other side.
The trouble is, they can zombify you. Good on your missus, big up
If you don't mind me asking, what are the characteristics of your mental illness and are there specific circumstances which trigger them? Also how old were you when you first recognised that you were suffering with a mental illness?
I assume from the fact that you've only been there a couple of days that most of your conversations are with relative strangers. You're probably making the mistake of assuming the people you are talking to are all self assured and confident in their own skin when in fact they are going through exactly the same anxieties as you at meeting all these new people. Their anxieties and insecurities are probably giving off certain negative vibes which you are picking up on which makes you send out negative vibes of your own.