If you are for real (and in your early 40s as you implied), step back a bit. I suspect you are for real since no Palace troll would fish for sympathy.... surely? My recomendation is don't start threads. Join them if you have something to say. Nighty night.
I think you may have missed all the 'meat' in the sandwich to which you have added the upper slice of bread.
Have a read... if you have some moments to spare... :drama::lolol::bigwave: