You’re not alone. Mine were born when I was 42 and 45. Youngest is 3 now. From my experience Id say you are in the hardest period, particularly if you’re a bit older. Before you know it you’ll start getting a bit of life back - like they will start sleeping through, then you’ll be able to leave...
IMHO that is the ideal age to have kids.
You’ve still got something in your locker but have enjoyed a good amount of years without responsibility of kids
I was 42 and 45 when my two came along.
I would have had them earlier but circumstances didn’t allow.
My tip to older dads - give up booze if you want to be able to put more energy into being a good dad.
Also, your kids won’t care about your age.
In fact I say that but yesterday my eldest said...